Sunday, June 14, 2009

Our Id Ego & Superego by Sigmund Freud ( MY FAV )

According to Freud, we are born with our Id. The id is an important part of our personality because as newborns, it allows us to get our basic needs met. Freud believed that the id is based on our pleasure principle. In other words, the id wants whatever feels good at the time, with no consideration for the reality of the situation. When a child is hungry, the id wants food, and therefore the child cries. When the child needs to be changed, the id cries. When the child is uncomfortable, in pain, too hot, too cold, or just wants attention, the id speaks up until his or her needs are met.

The id doesn't care about reality, about the needs of anyone else, only its own satisfaction. If you think about it, babies are not real considerate of their parents' wishes. They have no care for time, whether their parents are sleeping, relaxing, eating dinner, or bathing. When the id wants something, nothing else is important.

Within the next three years, as the child interacts more and more with the world, the second part of the personality begins to develop. Freud called this part the Ego. The ego is based on the reality principle. The ego understands that other people have needs and desires and that sometimes being impulsive or selfish can hurt us in the long run. Its the ego's job to meet the needs of the id, while taking into consideration the reality of the situation.

By the age of five, or the end of the phallic stage of development, the Superego develops. The Superego is the moral part of us and develops due to the moral and ethical restraints placed on us by our caregivers. Many equate the superego with the conscience as it dictates our belief of right and wrong.

In a healthy person, according to Freud, the ego is the strongest so that it can satisfy the needs of the id, not upset the superego, and still take into consideration the reality of every situation. Not an easy job by any means, but if the id gets too strong, impulses and self gratification take over the person's life. If the superego becomes to strong, the person would be driven by rigid morals, would be judgmental and unbending in his or her interactions with the world.

Friday, June 12, 2009

H1N1??

just two days back i fell sick...

well it all began with my sore throat!

it was so irritating as i culdnt even eat or drink properly! its wa soo0o0 painful! and den came d damn flu!!! sneezing and sneezin non-stop!....der came the combination...d damn cough! and i lost my voice! i sounded like sum dinasour!!! lol...

due to all dese plus sum extra stress....fever came! 38.9! my mum n sis told me tt i mite have gotten swine flu!!! i was tinkin in my heart, stop cursing me la!!! haix...den sum hw mum gave me d medication at hme n wasted one day...i didn get cured! my fever didn go dwn....

n den finally mum decided to bring me to the clinic....wen we wen der, i got d shock of my life!! we saw tis young lady wearing the face mask, holding sum papers and was on the fone crying...n she der came d ambulance and d medics brought her... mum wen to ask d nurse wat happen and he said, she had fever and wen to overseas...to HONG KONG!!!!

i got so freaked out mann! my mum wen to take d que no and sat dwn...d nurse came n took my temp n said,"oh dear, ur fever is so high!" i was tinking..."GOVINDA"!!!....den he asked me if i had flu, cough, sore throat and muscle pain...these are d symptoms for siwne flu!!! i said yes for all exlcudin the muscle pain n tank god i didn go overseas and tt nurse had to make me wear tt damn mask!!!

damn embarrassing! upon seeing me wearing the mask, a lady who was sitting beside me, got off n stood outside the clinic...she laughed and said, "sry la, i very scared le" i was tinking! damn dese sporeans! dnt hv to be kiasu until like tis!! argh! den finally i went to see d doc...he was so rude! he didn communicate wit my mum properly and wen mum asked abt d medication n requested for a medication, he just" i alrdy told d nurse, u go outside and check...u not happy, u let d nurse knw" like wat the hell la!...

oh btw, tt wasnt d same doc i always see....my family doc wasnt der, so tis was tis temporary doc...so yea, wen out took d medication n went home!! terrible day! i seriously feel like sueing the doc! argh!

Saturday, June 6, 2009

sighz :(

back afta a long break...

a long bad break...!!



so many things has happened in tis break....

so much fites between me and him! it seems like its my fault for all this to happen! but wen i tink thru it thoroughly, i sumtimes wonder if it is reeli my fault??? he did things to take revenge on which hurts so badly! n even made me suspect him! i mean who wuldnt if dey were in my situation...

it seems like he has lost interest in me! he wasnt like tis at d beginning! he was sum1 who doesnt like me getting hurt, but now, he is doing tt so many times! told him so many times tt if he wants to carry on, wit sum1 else....let it be....but he claims tt he still loves me....den y must he hurt me so badly! his actions....his words are killing me! he wen out wit his godsis without even telln me! he did it, coz once i did d same....but i wen out wit a grp....he wen alone wit her....y
?!!

im like so lost! i duno wat to do! i duno if tis would carry on! no one is helping me! no one can help me! every min, every sec i feel like he's cheating me! i mean all guys, or maybe most guys wuld say no....but at d back u wun knw wat are dey doing??!! i reeli feel like ending everything! its all my fault! i shld have tot wisely!

i deserve to be treated like tis! y dun u juz kill me instead of torturing me like tis!

he went for chalet! i culdnt slp d whole nite, wonder whr is he n wat he's doing! d fear was so great tt i kept shivering nt tokin to myself! wat mistake did i do tt i hv to sit one corner and cry every single day, tolerating his hurts! SHE told me, dnt rush....sit dwn n tink properly! duno whr i kept my brains!

im the reason for my mistakes! as punishment, i deserve all this hurt and tears!





going off with confusions.....
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will be back