back afta a long break...
a long bad break...!!
so many things has happened in tis break....
so much fites between me and him! it seems like its my fault for all this to happen! but wen i tink thru it thoroughly, i sumtimes wonder if it is reeli my fault??? he did things to take revenge on which hurts so badly! n even made me suspect him! i mean who wuldnt if dey were in my situation...
it seems like he has lost interest in me! he wasnt like tis at d beginning! he was sum1 who doesnt like me getting hurt, but now, he is doing tt so many times! told him so many times tt if he wants to carry on, wit sum1 else....let it be....but he claims tt he still loves me....den y must he hurt me so badly! his actions....his words are killing me! he wen out wit his godsis without even telln me! he did it, coz once i did d same....but i wen out wit a grp....he wen alone wit her....y
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im like so lost! i duno wat to do! i duno if tis would carry on! no one is helping me! no one can help me! every min, every sec i feel like he's cheating me! i mean all guys, or maybe most guys wuld say no....but at d back u wun knw wat are dey doing??!! i reeli feel like ending everything! its all my fault! i shld have tot wisely!
i deserve to be treated like tis! y dun u juz kill me instead of torturing me like tis!
he went for chalet! i culdnt slp d whole nite, wonder whr is he n wat he's doing! d fear was so great tt i kept shivering nt tokin to myself! wat mistake did i do tt i hv to sit one corner and cry every single day, tolerating his hurts! SHE told me, dnt rush....sit dwn n tink properly! duno whr i kept my brains!
im the reason for my mistakes! as punishment, i deserve all this hurt and tears!
going off with confusions.....
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will be back
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